startlingly real pain that washes over and over wanting only to be enshrined, engulfed by sensation by thought a construct of delusion and joy realities that may not exist past the confines of skin heart you want only to believe in that moment with only the pleasures existent because of you unknowingly forced to stop and see go outside the walls seeking but unable to hold onto depth, the warmth freedom to have the soft, plush wool pulled upon you when i cant make it play it hurts where has the mind gone like love it is palpable the only shifts and changes are your repetitive strokes you dont know how to be fulfilled, back and forth only new directions of sound highlight the space around not alone but you are so alone