in decision

for that moment that place the escape that is enabled shamelessly me enshrined in a smile because of it the music the loop the levity that i hold dearly as it is where i find my joy dancing alone within masked by the beat lucid to the eternal because i can be lost within myself among the noise my own being that reaches for a happiness that drapes time to forget for me is to hold close time moment visions of the joy passed and the future that lay ahead only alive will i feel this passion awakening forgiving i shall always be

am i but only wanting to be anew being simply an imprisoned image of my limited vision acting becoming while only showing a small sense of self a part withheld within my own scope not disappointed afraid of the reach or hopeful of a rise but journeying awakening and discovering Could what feels slowly be but just a matter of fact of time? perhaps i am aloft empty and void of needless hoping as i dont need its will its talon as i am me

whoops there i go, dropping myself into a hollow letting my knees go weak, slipping beneath the clouds leaving space for freedom to abound when we open we unfurl allowing an existence to seem near, one that perhaps is not real. i often wonder if i were to be strong enough to let go to be what one knows they have learned escaped of conformity free to live with the unknown afraid and enlightened i wonder if i could be and would i

feeling strong emotions, unable to discern from the pain of need, want, desire to the longing for lust, greed and hope awash with self i have been but unable to contain my empty thoughts my pain self involved so deep within my mind left to believe that i am mine falsifying my own existence to pray for a stronger day unable to see, to realise that the shame shows me the way beyond minutes and hours, those periods that make me feel so weak at he knees, lost again, helplessly caught up with blinkers on i should feel ashamed. when i understand after time passed, i do but open up once more forgiving others forgiving hate releasing myself i can be in control but i digress i smile i feign until i can be

sitting aloft gorging on but feed fat with content facts only false life a wasted speck in space and time most immeasurable i sit silently enjoying my mind, too much traveling from past through future  at each point trying to let go some more to not want desire feel tripping along the journey happy and free i am me and?

Darkened through shadows thought A life in a time not felt honest I become confused Unable to see myself My heart Belief Simple time in now shows me full Of life Of time Of happiness The sounds of life resound around me