in decision

jumped up, all kinds of-a spun round hittin high the notes far from d3livered into the wake alive and entered one simple escaped without loss i sit

i don't know how hard i should be, how hard, how spread my legs should be we lose happiness we lose peace to be what is perceived, only to be the same the shit the boredom the creation that is me the escapism that is you alone beyond the the grasp is a gentle peace that is the beach the waves leaves wind clouds blue shaped happiness feel me and know I'm lost from that which is forgive me be me play

a bounce that passes past you a hop that clears you my life that is not yours unable to give wholly to each smile that presents unable to share as i am selfish as we are all selfish as you don't want what is hard you don't want to see the light for all its emptiness you don't want to understand that the emptiness that is me is you freedom of life from you is all i seek hence freedom from my mind is all i need emptiness nothingness escaping the minutae it's the difficulty that excites me the difficulty that challenges me if it were not difficult, why bother?

scent of the fireplace trust cold hands pressed for warmth breath rainbow lines window steam parched lips made dry by a tiny gesture, this raindrop now all sounds resonance oneness

a long standing silence, perhaps of forgotten time an idea passed does the body hold life; after death? for what length of time in such accumulation then where from is its presence brought forth                                                                                      hence where shall it reside once this its shell subsides? opened is a line can it be controlled or does it lead, if so from where before? the energy being so strong what if 'i' felt far away not without joy, not without love but with pain simply to become

masked in a shroud of depth, seeking a shaped whole wanting to find light from within as a dense scape fleeting images of enlightenment warranted only by fate my beauty abounds inside faces of thought between glory for ideas dropped sharply past unknown space a love of visual word deep desire wanting of the lost into forever will i flow taking only empty heart

feeling safety under the umbrella strength of another shaped wholly by harshness and loss  seeing that small differences exist worlds apart sometimes free to hold the life, to squeeze awaken excite and involve open general growth between giant green germs generally generates gross grounding, generalisation, and grotesque greatness governed gallantly by generous means