in decision

if i were a little cloud floating by through the sky, what would i feel? would i be loud, emoting or would i cry? if i fell through a deep, endless hole in my mind, what would i feel? would i weep friendless or would i die? if i were to step into a void of time, what would i feel? would i be annoyed with mine? perhaps i smiled, would i be beguiled? if i laughed, would you too?

unable to get lost.  then, as time catches up with you, having lived feeling as though you were ahead of it, as though it had no affect on you, SNAP, it catches you, slows you down, shows you how small you are, how small your actions are, how big your 'Right' thoughts need to be. and i enjoy it we all do the life giving feeling that you are as insignificant as the shell that is. though whole and complete as an entity. that 14 billion years has led to you and billions of  years will take you with it.  that we fall into our space of time that inhabits such minute dimensions. we fall prey to material gain, to love, to worth, to what we perceive as life, forgetting that this planet in this universe in this mulitverse exists without our needs, without our wants, only our position of homeostasis.  passions, desires, conceptual thoughts of needs and shadowed longings of wants we sit, stand and play within our time, not living presently enough, living through memories a...

whoosh! and it changes. so much harder for some than others. i don't want to get lost in the development of the mind, and to trip the light fantastic on buddhism, but the pain hurts more the more you feel the pain. the peace of change of thought, through the understanding of human conditioning to emotion can show light in so many dark places. it's so hard though. to let one go, to not experience the loss. we all will. it becomes to some a recognised emotion that is borne of attachment and if one can release oneself from all attachments, not by hiding or denying, but through understanding of ones mind, its creations (emotions) and its reactions, then one (we) can see happiness in the comfort of intelligent / deep thought, of separating oneself from pain to see and feel change as it is, a constant, an ever-being entity that this life we live has for us. that change does not bring pain, it brings more thought, more joy in knowledge and in understanding. but the now feel...

a year ago and it seems like forgotten time. sometimes it is only in this time space, of years passed is it that we connect with others, through dates and what become norms, forgetting feelings, forgetting that it is love that brings us each moment. real love shared by the whole, but as each individual within it we are allowed to feel it, find it and experience all. and it is all. all around us, all within us this hidden gem that through time and the histories great has held many names, forms and shapes. all of which sit within us all. a year ago and have i changed? i hope not. i hope i am always within the heart of myself that i am yet to find. i love this journey, this quest, for all that it has brought obvious to me now, and for all the wisdom it has instilled deep inside me, shared by all, to be found. to sit simple thoughts that become encased troublesome worries, and for what? why? where else does one stand so afraid of the next step because they know it means so much? ...

transitions not so sweet, will wet the feet small souls given over to the hive is but all we are sick to the teeth the hate and the love is so bittersweet pain in the brain aches in the heart glory is all that is sought, after all what else is there?? but waiting for change, chasing the same yet knowing that each hold is different with each new grasp at the branch that sits above, so close to reach, yet so far whole bodies not real, time and space co-exist, mind has gone to feel like strands of the time that has created it, an itch that runs so deep that only the mind feels it can scratch. is this sweet? pain? torture? self mutilation of the most narcissistic, masochistic kind? joy? or anguish of the heart? cries for help or leaps of love? how do we know, but if not to experience and to hence forth decide, analyze and ponder within and on. if there is no path to tread then we feel lost having only the space of our minds to exist upon. its tangible feelings that we w...

you find new heights, new boundaries that seem within reach, seem as though they could be torn down with such ease yet you hold them so close, fearing to let go of what holds you back. time keeps showing you what is within reach only to keep you past it with each forward second. can time be stopped? be it through power, force or belief can time be halted? can time cease to exist? looking through it within our minds allows us to traverse its beauty, all that it has captured, all it has taken away and the spirits that have created it. time is here but of creation, as a reason, but it shows its intangible necessity as a part of the motion of this evolution. we cannot categorise the existence of all as a part of anything wholely but time. a universe holds many more universes and this is without end. time is all we can be said to live within as a holder and quantifier of all that space and matter symbiotically meld within. we will keep moving toward an end, on a path that will only op...

smash it first, crash it first, bash it first go and have it first. trash it first, go get lost in it first. mash it home first don't trip on the way to it first. go get it today, go find ways to get paid, be the first to get laid, make waves in lemonade. smack it home for sure, be the one to fall, seek it beyond the all, dont be the one to drawl. chase dreams with a passion, feel life as it happens as its you that can make this in this life.